June 6th
It has been a year since Grandpa Died. I spent many moments today pondering his
influence in my life and the life of my children and other family members. It is hard to believe that it has been a
whole year without him. Some days it
seems just like he has only been gone a few days, and I can just drop by the
house and find him with his big old hat on working in the garden. Then there are days that I worry that I have
forgotten exactly what his gruffly voice sounds like or the classic Grandpa Rex
smell of herbs mixed with menthol.
I was looking through photo’s today and there isn’t a single
one of Grandpa Rex where he doesn’t have that big smile on his face, with that
little BABB evil eye (the one so many of us have) that says I LOVE YOU as he
squints with a crooked grin. I can hear
him laugh in my mind as I look at pictures of him teasing the girls and getting
such a kick out of them falling for the same old riddles and tricks we all grown
to love.
My thoughts were also on Grandma Jo today. Still here, hanging in there, but so
lonely. I cannot imagine what one year
on earth is without your sweetheart. She
has endured so much since his passing and while we never know why we are the
one taken, or the one left behind, I know she is still with us because it is
part of God’s plan. She tells me often
she feels Grandpa here and I know she is right because I often feel him
too. If there were only one person I
could send to heaven to be my angel, knowing that they would watch over us
tirelessly, it would have been Grandpa.
There is no doubt that he is watching and helping us in every way that
he can.
I love you Grandpa, miss you tons. I am sure that you are super busy up there,
and have many important things to do, but I, but I know that you have made the
time to watch over each one of us still here.
I look forward to being with you again.
I am sure that you will have things well under control and are anxious
for us to join you when it’s our time.